Now Most of this was written quite a few weeks ago, but the sad part is that most of what is written here still holds true, if not truer than it did those few weeks ago. I'll add the new and edited content in a different font and color.
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I find it really hard to blog during the summer, well let me rephrase that, I find it hard to stay awake to blog during the summer. I never really find any sort of motivation to write and I suppose that this is one major problem. The reason I find it hard is because I work. It may not sound like anything special, but in my case it is, and I'm not just lazy. Construction is hard, simple as that, it takes a lot out of me. Not to mention I spend the little time I do have with Melissa. I'll give you a rundown of how a typical day should go:
Anywhere from 4:00-4:45=Wake Up
4:30-5:00=Get ready and Leave for work.
Anywhere from 6:00-7:00=Start work
6:00-7:00--3:00-4:00=Work
3:00-4:00=Drive home
4:00-5:00=Get home, shower, lay down, eat.
5:00-6:00= Wait for Melissa/Drive to Melissa's
9:25-10:00= Drive Home/Say Goodbye to Melissa
Not much to my days after work. I kind of hate it and in some miniscule way, it drives me inane. I don't get any respect from the people I work for. Every day I lose it just a little bit more and the only thing keeping me from going completely nuts is the fact that I get to see Melissa, she keeps me from losing it.
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I got my grades last week and I was honestly very surprised. I got two B's and a BC. That was surprising to me
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I cannot wait until I go back to school. Things at home seem to either:
A.) Be going downhill since I came home
B.) Have been going downhill regardless of my prescence.
I can't wait to go back because of the freedom, I also can't stand being home because I don't know anybody from around here. I'm caught in the "high-school limbo" I went to two different high schools and never had the time to make any important relationships, so when everyone talks about going home to see their high school friends I get kind of pissed because I don't have those friends. I never had the time or the opportunity to make those kind of friends. Plus I went to a Catholic school and not a public school. The first two years are spent getting to know the people you are surrounded by, and the last two years are spent strengthening those relationships.
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I hate being home. My mom refuses to try and fix her own damn computer, so she wakes me up on weekends at 9 in the morning (like today) and makes me fix the damn thing. She makes me sit in the computer room and work on it. It pisses me off because of the fact that she never makes any effort to try and fix it herself. In the last 3 days I have had to fix her computer more times than I can count.
My mother never seems to be able to take care of anything on her own. She simply expects everyone else to do everything for her. It really is sad because when she does do something, she expects us to thank her in some very strange, over-exaggerative and gratuitous manner. She also likes to make it seem as though my father and I don't bust our asses at work.
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My parents are the only people that can make me cry and last week my dad and I got into it pretty bad, and things got uglier from there. I was crying a lot and my parents took none of it seriously. They thought that I was being dramatic, when i fact I had a bit of a nervous breakdown. I have come to the sole conclusion that they just dont care.
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I refuse to end this blog on a sad note. I'm definitely looking forward to Friday. Friday is the party that Stacy is throwing for everyone from school. A bunch of people are coming to Stacy's from all over and I'm hoping that everything goes well.
I also just finished watching the Die Hard Trilogy with Melissa, and I am definitely looking forward to the movie coming out tomorrow, Live Free or Die Hard, it's getting great reviews and I coudn't ask for more.
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