A dream brought back to home, we send our sunken ships to a shallow grave. Washed up upon the rocks...I Wont Be Saved.

I'm very restless today, it was one of those days where things just seem to be full of choices, and I for some reason or another could not find a way to be comfortable. I suppose that this is because my "summer" is coming to a close. It was uneventful, which in the past few years seems to define my life. I honestly don't know who is to blame for this. But in any case I find myself more and more restless as the hours drag on. Today was full of it's quirks, it was a bad driving day for me. This means no one should have allowed me to be behind the wheel of any sort of vehicle. Today, it seemed like everyone was driving just absolutely awfully. I could have sworn that everyone was still hungover from yesterday. I was fortunate enough to see some justice as someone actually got pulled over right in front of me for flying down Grand Avenue. It was amusing seeing the driver pull over. I guess it felt good for a change to see someone besides myself getting pulled over.
I think that today is one of those days that calls for a bit of restlessness, as this is the latest I've stayed up on a work night this whole summer. I don't know what called up this change of pace, but I suppose I need it as a change up as to what this summer has entailed. For example, I've played way to many video games and I am now regretting it with only a week left before I return to school. I haven't been able to spend as much time with my friends as I would have like because of the fact that we all need money so we're all on our separate paths, doing our own thing. What this basically comes down to is that everyone is working, making money, and spending time with their families. I suppose this contributes to my restlessness also.
I haven't spent much time with my family. I regret this a little bit and at the same time, I could care less because we all simply don't get along. I wish that life wasn't like that, but the problem is that they don't listen to what they don't want to hear. It's hard to communicate to thos who don't know what communication is. Capiche?
I'm glad you catch my drift.


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We "celebrated" Melissa's birthday this weekend and we were able to spend quite a bit of time together. We had dinner at my house after she got off of work, then we went to her house for cake. I enjoyed both. Not too much more to say to that effect except that I bought Melissa's B-day present, her ticket to Warped Tour. I got mine today also with hers as a belated b-day present. July 28th, here we come.
Speaking of concerts, Melissa and I wanted to attend the July 4th perfomances at Summerfest, unfortunately our friends weren't able to wait, so i'm going this weekend with Darren and Dustin as a sort of guys weekend seeing as though none of us have seen each other over the course of this god awful work horse summer. I'm looking forward to this weekend, except I don't believe that Melissa is. God knows I'll miss her, but I need this weekend to see my friends before school starts.

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I'm having a bit of anxiety about going back to school, even though I'm only going for night classes for five to six weeks. I have a lot of doubts in myself, about moving in all my stuff and having to move it to a different room, rooming with someone I barely know, how well I'll do this year, I have a lot of thoughts racing around in my head, and I honestly don't think that any of them are helping my restlessness. I think I'll miss Melissa a lot, and that's one more thought thats been rattling around in my head.

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I honestly do not want to work tomorrow or next week, I hope it rains, because if it does it means I don't have to work. Rain is predicted for three of the five days I work next week and I can only pray to God that it does actually does rain. We haven't been rained out a single day this summer so far, and the only days it has rained are the days I haven't worked or the weekends. Now that straight up pisses me off.

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I've been listening to a lot of different music lately, but one band that has consistently caught my ear is Senses Fail. For some reason, I've been in the mood to listen to them lately and I have really enjoyed listening to them. I have been listening to everything on my computer and I'm enjoying it a lot. I really want to listen to all the music on my computer and my iPod right now, but that would involve me staying up much later than I would expect. I think that the soft crooning of Michael Buble is my queue to go to bed and I think that I should. So for now I think I'll leave off with that note,
Goodnight.