In any event, I am sad to say that this Monday, April 7th in the year of our Lord 2008, will not be going down as one of my "Top 10 Days of All Time." For the past few months I have had my eye on a potential job in Milwaukee, which is not conveniently located to say the least. It would be a drive, but God Almighty would it be amazing. Needless to say I find out this morning they don't have paid positions "available," stretch that an you begin to wonder if they mean in general or only available to people have worked internships and have proved their worth. Of course, in many ways this crushed me and the job search started up again and with that I felt the pangs of insanity setting in again. I don't mean that literally dear reader...who am I kidding no one reads this malarchy.
Sequence of today's events:
1st) Job declined
2nd) Cannot for the life of me write a cover letter.
3rd) Was unable to get my radio station duties done in a timely manner
4th) Found myself in a fight with a girl, the end result while unpleasant fucked over more people than simply myself.
5th) look ^^^^...lost the radio station's archivist.
6th) While faxing my application to the Bonneville Radio Alliance, found that two pages had become stuck together when I tried to reinsert the signature page and found that I did not send all of the pages.
7th) Did not get to talk to the most amazing record promoter that everyone thinks I'm gay for when in fact just enjoy shooting the shit and I was actually close to crying when I realized that i wouldn't be able to salvage my Monday because of this, not to mention what time it was, the day was already half over.
8th) I feel like everyone is staring at me like I am the worst person in the world.
9th) Registration for classes is like a ninja, kills you and you never saw it coming, *sigh* what I wouldn't do to hire someone to do this kinda shit for me, but alas, such is life.
That's about it for that, and I'm sure theres more to it than this, but Lord knows that if I keep on like this someone is going to email me or comment and tell me to get help or quit bitching, but all I know is that tomorrow should be better and if it's not, I shall name this week, BAH week., for Become An Hero week. But to those of you who do read this, don't worry, I'll be fine. I honestly never saw myself having these sort of concerns in college. I never honestly thought drama would be an issue and I had always hoped it would keep itself at bay, because I hate it. So in addition to my irrational fears, over-stressfulness, and other events I find that tend to be out of my control.
I'm trying so hard to just be ok. All I want is everything to work out. That's all I've ever wanted.
Fuck.
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