A Lot More Than 25 Things Everyone Doesn’t, but Should Know About Me.

1. I think about the events of my past far too often and more times than not I let it get in the way of present decisions, if not a major problem, then I usually find myself caught in moments of days long gone.
   

2. If I don't think something is worth doing I will usually attempt it anyways and after realizing I was right all along to think that it wasn't worth it, I give up and sometimes beat myself up over wasting time.
   

3. I love to watch and observe people and when and if I'm found out I usually don't stop doing what I'm doing and act as natural as possible. As creepy as that sounds, people work in strange manners especially when they think no one is looking and I take note of that. It's amazing what body language can show you and how sad or happy someone can sit, yes, sit.
   

4. I truly and sincerely believe that teachers hate class participation solely because they want to get the lesson out without a hitch and don't feel like hearing from students who think they know what they're talking about.
   

5. I love the smell of old books, pencils, some lotions (the real fruity ones), new car smell, my car, blacktop in the summer, gasoline, and wet pavement in the spring.
   

6. I think some people believe I'm a "poser" when they see me doing something that has recently become popular when that isn't the case for me or anyone else. It sucks even more when I've known about it much longer than they've even been alive. It even disgusts me that I have to have that conversation with someone and that I have to validate myself to someone I don't even know. For example, I have an infamous tattoo on my wrist and people love to tell me that I only like Coheed and Cambria because of Rock Band, I have had this conversation before and it got to the point where I almost broke the arrogant punk's neck. One of the many reasons I don't want to go back to the gas station this summer. This point was not solely about Coheed and Cambria.
   

7. I carry a pen with me at all times. One reason is for class and second because you never know when you or someone around you will need a pen. It's like the towel from Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. I love to steal pens too and if I were from Texas, my gun would be a pen.
   

8. I have a novel in progress but it will be a very long time before that "masterpiece" hits shelves. This is assuming I even want to publish after the major overhaul it's going to go through. 70 handwritten pages in a binder that very few people have seen and there is a drawing in the front pocket of the binder that still means something to me.
   

9. I should write more, but writing for class has made me lose any passion I had and I now see writing as a chore, but that is changing and more times than not I make excuses as to why I'm not going to write.
   

10. Due to lessons I learned as a kid and other life lessons, I make an effort to not do stupid things I did as a kid and got scolded for. Mind you I got scolded for everything and so it in some respects ruined my standards and boundaries. I brush my teeth sometimes to tell myself "my teeth aren't green" because my mom told me they were as a kid and also I've tried to be a less picky eater cause my parents would get mad if I was too picky.
    

11. I want things to matter so badly that when nothing else matters, I make things matter just so I can spend my time caring about something…anything.
    

12. I have the hardest time deciding what I want to listen to when I listen to music. I want to listen to everything and can rarely ever just know what I sounds good to me.
    

13. I have the sexiest bedhead ever.
    

14. I love; I mean LOVE stereo/studio headphones.
    

15. I fucking hate earbuds.
    

16. I miss people I never talk to, like old classmates. I'm always surprised to see what they're doing and what they're up to. I never really had a lot of friends, just people I knew and knew about. This being the case it doesn't affect me much to see when some of them fuck up, solely because I know nothing about most of them. On the other hand, most of the kids I went to grade school with I knew pretty well and it's interesting to see how we've all grown up.
    

17. I get really excited, like bouncing off the walls can't sit still excited when a new [insert electronic form of entertainment i.e. CD, DVD, game] is released, the sad part being I'm usually the only one who cares and that always brings me down just a little bit. On a side note, I need a new External Hard Drive, mine is now fucking broke, didn't even last a year, and I will never buy Hitachi again.
    

18. I cannot go to bed early unless I have been running around in circles all day. It gets pretty unhealthy sometimes and I've had this problem since I was a kid. I blame it on my overactive head…I think too damn much.
    

19. I love the song "Doesn't Remind Me" by Audioslave cause it makes me think of the interesting things I have done in my past (some of which are in that song). I would love to do all the things in the song, especially wander the streets of Japan. It also makes me think of how happy I've been, how happy I will be, and how happy I've made other people.
    

20. I place certain trusts and beliefs in silly faiths and stupid things. Sometimes I pray, wish, hope, or whatever that I won't be told by someone that I am a fool. The downside to all of this is that if the things I put my faith in don't come through for me, I get really depressed. I know this one is kinda confusing…so move on.
    

21. My silent rage meter goes up when people, in all seriousness, insult me when I slip up while talking, spell something wrong, or whatever, solely because I'm a writing major. I'm not saying I can't take a joke, but when the issue gets pushed over and over and people get more and more serious, I'm likely to burst, luckily to this day it has only happened a few times.
    

22. To this day I dream about my real mother and when I was about 7 (before I knew I was adopted) I swear I could hear my mom whispering to me. That is the reason why, to this day, I wear headphones more than I should and as much as possible for two reasons. One to sometimes keep it at bay and two with big headphones I can keep her voice close to me. I know that sounds a bit crazy and someone out there is going to think "He hears voices in his head, what a fucking loon!" Not the case.
    

23. I can twirl most anything between my fingers, drum lessons have made me a compulsive tapper and twirler and if you give me a pair of drumsticks I would love it, smile, and possibly attempt to play again.
    

24. I love the feeling of socks in bed; it's such an amazing feeling that on thousands of occasions have put me to sleep.
    

25. I'm very compassionate and in some cases care too much. I hate the commercials for the ASPCA or stuff like that because I'm a sucker for animals, things with fur (not hairy people), and other adorable and cute things.
    

26. At one point in my life I seriously considered becoming a comedian and was inches away from doing it but there were a lot of things holding me back from doing it, including my lazy "who gives a fuck attitude." This is not the first time this has happened to me.
    

27. My body is a natural furnace and even when my skin is cold, my body gives off a shit ton of heat.
    

28. When I was a kid, my parents had bought me a Monopoly board game and when I got it I opened it up and everything, set it up and started moving the battleship around the board all by myself. As I was playing with it I was bringing the battleship around Free Parking and put a big scratch into the board. I cried for hours and to this day I still don't know why.
    

29. I hate Cheeto fingers.
    

30. I'm deathly afraid of needles, spiders, and bugs.
    

31. I used to leave Ferris Buehler on my VCR nonstop on weekends and would watch it while I played games on the computer. I still know the entire movie line for line by heart.
    

32. Don't ask me why, but I love having the Roman Numeral IV on my arm.
    

33. I've never been out of the country.
    

34. I hate bright lights in the morning.
    

35. I would love to lie in the grass more often but I'm allergic to grass and it itches like hell.
    

36. I wish I had a deeper voice.
    

37. I think the crudest and most crass humor is the funniest.
    

38. I can say one word, start thinking of a song and start singing it on the spot.
    

39. I love the phrase "the majesty of colors."
    

40. I'm a lot smarter than I act and a lot smarter than people perceive me to be. I know everyone says that people will think your less intelligent if you cuss, I don't think that's necessarily true.
    

41. I've never had a huge group of friends, always just one or two really close people I surrounded myself with.
    

42. Believe what you will about me, but I'm kind of a bad ass and while some things may not testify to this, I am. I have:
    

• Fallen off of scaffolding, on my back, onto rocks.
  
• Had a dog attack my ankle when I was a kid
  
• Been smashed headfirst into a brick wall
  
• Worked construction in shorts and a t-shirt when it was less than 20 degrees for more than 5 hours
  
• Had my arm stuck in a boat lift motor
  
• Punched so many inanimate things my hands shouldn't function
  
• Fallen headfirst into a boiling hot bucket of water (yes most of you know that one)
  
• Fixed an automatic window by punching it
  
• Had a chunk of brick the size of both my fists fall on my head from 4 stories up.
  
• Gotten into 3 car accidents, only one where I was driving. The one where I was driving I smashed my head into the steering wheel, window, and into the steering wheel again before passing out.
  
• Taken a ball of ice to the face, thrown at me by a crazy woman and I didn't even flinch.
  
• Hit and run by a car working at Jewel.
  
• Fallen 10 feet to the ground, face first and didn't go unconscious.
  

1. While I am very outgoing there is only one thing that two people I know, know about and even they don't know everything about it.
   

2. I hate when directors make movies, sequels to movies, etc, that shouldn't have been made at all or made in order to solely make profit because the first one did well or because they think they're the greatest director of all time. Instead of making the movies decent they just make huge steaming piles of crap.
   

3. I never understood and will never understand why people get mad at other people for being mad at them, when the other people clearly had a reason to be mad.
   

4. I spend time looking up and researching things from music, movies, and games and this is why I know so much about nothing.
   

5. At 22 I still have absolutely no clue where my life is going or if my career dreams will come true.
   

6. I always come up with a bazillion scenarios of how situations will play out in order to be prepared and more times than not the one that I don't think of is what ends up happening, I suck.
   

7. I have made a lot of mistakes in my life. I have a lot of regrets and a lot of things I wish I could change but I think about them every day for some reason.
   

8. I hate being late, even if it's out of my control, opposite that, I hate it even more when other people are late, especially if it affects me.
   

9. I try not to break promises and when/if I do, I feel like shit. However, if I say I'm going to do something but didn't "promise," I hate when people try to hold it against me as a promise. I once told someone that I wouldn't make promises I couldn't keep and I've been pretty successful so far.
   

10. I love using the ellipsis a.k.a. dot, dot, dot. (…)
    

11. I have an extremely random thought process and will sometimes blurt out words that have seemingly no relevance to the conversation at hand, but to me it makes all the sense in the world.