Guess what world, it's finally hit me.
I'm a wonderful idiot.
Yep, I'm an idiot.
The biggest one you've seen and I think it's about time I get my god damned parade.
What's that you say?
No parades on Tuesdays?
Fuck you.
I'm such a fucking idiot, it isn't even funny.
Letting myself think I was worth it and that I would and could do something and change minds and be worth time and that there was a point to moving on, like being a speck wasn't good enough, I had to remind myself how much things sucked before times 100.
Now I have this movie in my head playing in theaters 24/7.
I hate this movie now. I'll sell the rights.
Finished Watchmen, yeah I'm a fucking bandwagon whore. It was good and it was the one good thing I've done since ever...i think.
I can't believe I got myself tricked again. I thought that everything would be different two years later. This shit happened my Freshman year the only difference is that I'm not failing out of school...yet.
Now it's back to square root of -1.
This drawing board sucks, it's got stuff engraved on it and it isn't smooth anymore.
People wrote a lot of stuff on here, mostly, Bill sucks, stop using the drawing board and "quit being a dumbass."
I hate to love beating myself up.
But it needs to be done.
If anyone says I'm emo, i'll punch you and see how emo I am when I'm kickin your ass.
Three Cheers for your favorite failure.
The Lovable Loser.
Me.
3 comments:
You're not a failure. Seriously. It sounds like you made the right decision, you're just second-guessing yourself. Just because someone doesn't want you doesn't mean everyone in the world doesn't want you. You need to get out of your Pit of Despair, for real. I mean it.
You better be coming to Watchmen, or else I'll kick your ass. Mmkay? You need a distraction. You need to dissociate from all this shit for a while. You're not a loser, you're not stupid, and you're not a failure. Plenty of people enjoy your company. Don't be one of those people who has to be with someone to be happy. Those people never do anything fun with their lives.
You're on the rebound, you're feeling down, I get it. But this is the time to show her, and everyone else, that you can be independent and live by yourself and enjoy your own life without someone else being a integral part of it. I think you need to find who you are again. Focus on yourself instead of focusing on other people. It sounds selfish, but it's perfectly healthy. I do it all the time; I'm trying to do it now, since I spent all of high school worrying about other people. I'm not worried about you. I just don't want to see you go through what I went through, yeah?
It sucks, big time. Just remember that. It really, really sucks.
You know what I told myself, though? I told myself that I would live through it and use the experience as a stepping stone in my life, to look back on and learn from. Learn from this, but please, dear baby Jesus, please LEAVE IT BEHIND YOU. It's not worth carrying around. Really, it's not. You are not an emotions donkey. Live for yourself; live your own life.
Do I make myself clear, soldier?
Aw..you..it sucks that you're feeling like crap..really, I mean..the board thing, I don't get it..maybe people are super asstards, idk..fuck people! Do what you feel like!
Hey weirdie. Us Stephen-King-liking Virgo Tigers have to stick together, so I'm following you.
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